hmm, so Matt 24:45-47 tells me that if I'm faithful in the job I have been given, I will be REWARDED with a harder job.... hmmm.... that kind of gives one pause to think. A few things -- the first one was, why would I WANT a harder job? Then came, hmm, obviously there is something wrong with ME, if this is a promise of God and I don't want it.... Then I looked at my messy house and bagan to study the dust on my stereo, and thought about being faithful in the little things, and just being the proper keeper of my home as I should be, instead of, what? studying??? ok, facebook.... :((( granted, if I gave my facebook time to housekeeping, we'd see a big difference here. So, in keeping with the idea that I am learning to trust God to guide my paths, because I am acknowledging Him in all my ways, I have to consider here two things: 1. He's brought this to my attention. 2. He will do it in my life -- give me the desire, the energy, the self-control. Yes, I believe I need to step out in faith, and do what needs to be done. But I also believe that He will guide my steps and He will give me the desires of my heart. Meaning, He will put within me the proper desires, those that are in line with His will; but also that, since my greatest desire is to please Him, He will even give me the DESIRE to clean my house. It will be a joy! And I'm sensing that already.

BUT I also have to remember, I am learning to live by faith, NOT emotions. It is not how I feel, but it is obedience, no matter what. I am to obey, I am to do what He asks me to do, even if it goes against how I "feel". The desire will follow, or not, and that doesn't matter, either way, cuz no matter what happens on this earth, this is not paradise, this is not where we get to cease from our tears and sorrows, that doesn't happen until heaven, after we die or Jesus comes to take us away.

But, then I consider the sense of gaining responsibility. How often have I felt I wasn't being used to the fullest of my potential? I know I have abilities that are not being used, and there is the desire to use those abilities. Just because I don't want the job of taking care of an entire household as an overseer, as in the passage mentioned above, doesn't mean I wouldn't love to be teaching a class on Genesis or "Learning how to Trust", or singing solos or playing my flute on a worship team, or helping with a youth group, or taking care of the computer system, etc... So, I will continue to trust, to be content, to be faithful in the little things, in the responsibilities I have been given at this time, and do them to the best of my abilities, and I will look forward to, and consider myself blessed, when Jesus allows me to move forward to the next level of responsibility.